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Moving to and from Cleveland to Toledo the past three years I have realized that I own quite a lot.

Clothes, shoes, accessories, books, notebooks, skin and hair products, art supplies and more. These are all blessings and I praise God for them.  However I own more than I use. I know this is a fact because I can think specifically of belongings I have taken to and fro from one place to another and have not used. Some of these items I forget even belong to me until I make a move after a school year has passed.

Why do I own things I don’t use?
How do I allow myself to have an excess of things when some people lack daily necessities?

I was on a mission to give away or get rid of things I don’t use. I thought this would solve the problem— I just needed to declutter.

This Fall, I moved from college dorm into a larger apartment. I began grocery shopping for myself and my roommates at times each week. Something about my shopping habits started to stick out to me. At the store I’ll often restock on things I am not fully out of yet or even needing more of. Out of habit I’ll go and buy those things even if they are not on my list for the weeks trip.

Is this wrong? There is a time for gathering and in Proverbs we see that there is wisdom in preparing for the future. But I know these actions are not driven by a heart of preparation and faith, but rather a heart of fear. The reality is, I fear not having enough. This is a lack of trust in God’s providence for me.

In movies and storybooks treasure holds great value and remains untouched. Jesus on the topic of treasures clearly states that “Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” (Matthew 6:21)

I had made my unused belongings as my treasure. When the extra fruit I bought goes bad, I am reminded that items on earth fade. The dust on my unused products remind me that time is quickly passing.

I was storing up treasure in the wrong place.

There is a place where no dust will gather and nothing will ever pass away or fade. Heaven is the only place where treasure will last forever. Here is the reminder I disregarded in fear: “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroy and where thieves do not break in and steal.” (Matthew 6:12-20)

God is our Provider.
God knows our every need.
Every good and perfect gift is from Him.
How can God remold the posture of my heart that fears lacking daily needs? How can I take this to the Lord? Jesus taught his disciples and us to pray saying— Give us this day our DAILY bread.

Why daily?

The Israelites in the wilderness were in need of food. God provided them with manna or bread each day that they were to gather. God instructed them to gather only a days worth of bread. The Israelites asked God to allow them to take more than a days worth of bread. God responded no. Why did God respond no to the Israelites when they requested this?

God knows that reliance on Him needs to be daily! Reliance on God does not occur only in the moments we need him most. Every moment we have is a gift from God, whether we realize it or not we are dependent on Him for even the breath we now take.

Do I live on day to day dependence on God? God is most honored by man’s dependence on Him. My actions show that I would rather prevent myself from having to depend on anyone or anything. Fear of running out. Fear that a lack of materials means insecurity. True security is only found in Jesus.

I am a child of God secured by Jesus Christ. He has brought me eternal security, but seeking security in material possessions that fade away, run out, or break will never bring peace and contentment. Depending on God daily means planning for the future, rooted in obedience to God but not a fear of running out.

I rest secured in Him.

In Christ,